Either blogging sucks, or I suck at blogging. You pick.

Here it is, another attempt to make this blogging thing a habit. We'll see how it goes.

Honestly, the come and go is probably a good thing for me - it usually takes me about 6 months to figure out what is going on in my own heart! The update? Sure, thanks for asking.

I like Jeremy - shocking, I know. Especially for those of you know know me. But honestly, I'm realizing just how deeply this runs. Somewhere I adopted this whole idea that serving and helping was a good thing (and it is!) - but not when my second thought is "what will I get out of it?" I don't want to serve to be served.

Here's the kicker - I've just been informed in my heart that I'm also unteachable. I think that until my heart is actually informed - it is only head knowledge and that never changes very much (except the size of one's own head). But seriously, I don't like correction, I don't like being wrong - and I don't do well when people tell me I'm wrong.

This is a pattern I don't want.

I don't like it in others, why would I expect others to like it in me?

Finally - it has really clicked this week that I have a let's-go personality with a whole lot of keep-up-or-get-out attached to it. If you're close enough to my life that this statement makes sense, thanks for sticking close and sticking it out. I'm learning to let others set the pace for life and friendship - please continue to stick it out with me!

So friends, lovers, countrymen - I'm in the process, you have my word. I'm learning to love and to be loved and I'm learning to let go of the perfect Jeremy so I can embrace the screw-ups around me...



For those of you who bother to read this crap, here is another idea from the brain of Jeremy. Please connect and get involved. I need your help!